I have always been a lover of the sea. It has been my haven each I feel how harsh the world is. Took this picture with my friends. I tried so hard to ignore my fear since I am acrophobic and it’s all worth it. I was able to take a glimpse at how amazing Boracay Island is especially from afar.
It was an extremely cold night. You had dinner with your family. You sent me a message saying you want to see me. With no second thoughts, I said sure. I was waiting for you to pick me up. Then you came. I painted a smile in my face to hide the tension. After 5 years of waiting patiently, finally, I had my moment with you. You had a bottle of beer, i had a soda. The conversation we had made me love you even deeper. After few hours, we decided to go home. My young heart wanted to be with you for the rest of the night. On our way home, the DJ played Ronan Keating’s When You Say Nothing At All. You said it’s our song. And my gullible young heart believed it’s ours. Seven years passed and I’m still holding on to that memory. The memory from the first night that we spent together. So many things has changed. I fell in love with someone else. Though I kept on loving you. I ended that love I had with someone else because your memories kept on lingering. I couldn’t win the battle I had with myself. I couldn’t fake happiness. I’m keeping myself from falling in love again. Afraid that it might not be as strong as my feelings towards you and I might just end up losing, again. You have a different life now. I can’t come any closer to you. Wish I can tell you - life without you is just so empty. I don’t even know how to end this note much as I don’t know how to stop my madness towards you.
To my friends - My angels, I thank God because I grew up with you. You are a part of the person I am today and who I’ll become in the future. Thank you for listening to all my dramas in life and for understanding such attitude. I was deeply moved yesterday. Just one message and you all made me feel your presence. I feel no pain when I am with you, so can we stick together forever? I love you angels! Big hug! :))
I woke up with a heavy heart. I cried because of loneliness. Since I lost you, I can’t seem to find happiness. I was browsing at my friend’s album and I saw your pictures. How can your smile still melts my heart after all these years? Then I heard this song. Do you even remember how this song became so special to me? I doubt. I haven’t seen you in 4 months. Haven’t kissed you in 3 years. I am missing your embrace. Nostalgia is making me so sick. Until when am I going to carry the burden of loving you? When can I finally say I’m over you? I keep on telling myself to stop being so dramatic but I can only express my feelings by writing. I can only reach you when I write. I’m bitter and I’m trying so hard not to be so attached to other people. I’m giving so much love and it’s frustrating to know that I’m receiving less than what I deserve. I just feel so tired now and I wish you’re right beside me.